Vacancy

We all have a strong yearning to be needed. We desire more than a simple want from those around us. We want those we care about to need us - sometimes in the smallest senses and sometimes in the greatest.

I want a small place carved into the heart of each person I share a relationship with. I want to be given the creative freedom and endowment of trust to architect great structures of strength, beauty and virtue within the spaces I am so cautiously allocated. To have a chance to paint great murals dedicated to the intoxicating highs and crushing lows. I want the opportunity to leave something behind more beautiful than the vacancy that would have been in my absence.

For that, I would hollow out a place in my own heart for the same.

Moving Backwards

I feel like I've been driving around all weekend, only to realize that the direction I've been going in the entire time was reverse. And tomorrow, I'm going to have to go into work and lie to my colleagues, with a smile on my face, about how great my weekend was because of all the wonderful things I did. Great.

A Face in the Crowd

The times I spend with the largest numbers of people are also the times I'm often reminded of how alone I really am. Whose fault is it? Is it my own? Possibly. It's hard to tell these things.